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Hi, MC Solaris here, author of Calypso’s Heart, Orion’s Order book 1. And I’m thinking about starting a video series that I’ll call an About The Author Reading.
To kick this whole thing off, I thought I’d share a fear of mine: this... as in, being in front of a camera, especially a video camera.... AKA exactly what I’m doing right now.
FaceTime. Zoom. Speeches. Or being that person randomly called on in class during that anxiety-inducing Popcorn Reading activity. You name it, and I freeze up like a deer in headlights and turn into the most awkward turtle ever lol.
Okay, so what I’m getting at is this, I’m not an actress who’s trained to be in front of a camera... a camera I swear that is like a giant eyeball staring at me lol
But what I do feel comes naturally to me is writing...
So, naturally, I wrote down what I’d like to share today. And now you know why I’m reading from these notes like my life depends on it. And you’ll likely see me reading from my notes in all of my videos.... hence me calling this video series an About The Author “Reading.”
At this point, you may be wondering why am I doing this video series then?
Because I wanted to.
It seems counterintuitive. But sometimes the things you want to do are also things that can be scary to do.
So, I knew I wanted to do these videos. I knew I wanted you to get to know me a little bit more. And hopefully, in return, I’ll be able to get to know you too.
But every time I thought about recording a video, I clammed up.
Then I asked myself, is there anything I can do to help make me more comfortable when doing these videos?
And the answer just sort of came to me. Writing. Writing down what I’d like to share and then reading it like it’s straight up story time and I’m reading an excerpt from a book.
Did it absolve the fear completely?
No. My racing heart and sweaty self are proof of that lol. But it did bring the fear down to a manageable level, to a point where I’m like, okay, I can do this. I can read what I wrote and hopefully not make a fool of myself and end up going viral with a caption that says, “Woman Who Was A Fainting Goat In Her Past Life.”
Okay, to wrap this up, I want to ask you,
Where in your life are you holding back from doing something you want to do because of fear?
Is there anything you can do to help feel more comfortable when doing that thing?
I’d love to hear from you in the comments (or even in my inbox if leaving the comment is too scary... Miss Major Introvert over here gets that one completely lol although, seeming as this video is all about facing your fears like we’re Harry Potter facing the boggart, I’d encourage you to drop a comment. Besides, there may someone else who watches this and then reads your comment and feels the same way as you and then who knows, you may even become like internet BFFs or something lol.)
Oh, and, let me know if you’d like more of these About The Author Reading videos And if you have any particular questions or topics.
Okay, I can’t wait to chat with you! :)
M.C. Solaris
❤️Author of massively epic love stories
🧜♀️Creator of emotionally satisfying fantasy escapes
✨Healing thru storytelling
✍️ Channeler of Orion’s Order
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